I didn’t know what the heck I was doing with the camera. Half my shots were out of focus.
My life (and the model’s life) seemed not to have much focus either at that particular point in time, but we created a space for something to happen. And happen, it did!
Even though I released a set of photos prior to these, Lilly was the first model I shot when I decided to pick up a camera for the first time since college – and that was back in the days of film!
She politely put up with my fumbling and stumbling behind the back of a fully digital, super-charged SLR camera with a zillion options.
Back in the day, I learned about the process.
Developing my own negatives and prints in a dark room where pretty much anything could (and did) go wrong. Whole shoots lost because the film got stuck, over or double exposed, the light meter calculation was wrong, or somehow light got inside the camera before the film was tucked neatly back into it’s container.
Now everyone thinks it’s easy to take photos because we’ve been spoiled with smart phones that produce some pretty incredible shots without us having to think much at all.
With a lack of thinking and process, comes a false sense of control.
It really took focus to not fiddle around with all the settings, while attempting to hold a reflector between my knees (which totally didn’t work!) and stay present in the moment with my model — to capture her.
In the first hour, over half the shots I took were blurry, and I had no idea why. For a life-long perfectionist like me, that’s a hard place to be.
Of course, I did her makeup and hair too (details on products used at the bottom of this article). Maybe I bit off a little more than I could chew, but I had a feeling it was going to work out… [Read More…]